Truthfully I have been having a very rough few months physically speaking. I have been struggling and it is challenging mentally to always feel sick, tired, and in pain. Because of this I decided that I really needed a win and that win came yesterday. Yesterday was Christmas in July, known to common folk as July 25. I reclaimed this day and decided to treat myself, which I hadn’t done in a while.
Importance of Christmas in July
To most people, July 25 is just a day. To me, in my relationship with my ex-husband it was a huge deal. Why you might ask? Well my ex-husband loves Christmas. Therefore he gets super happy to celebrate it anytime he can, including in July. This was always a happy day in our relationship and a way I knew I could make him happy. I would always bake him my homemade cookies, get him a small gift, and we would watch one of his favorite Christmas movies together.
How I Reclaimed this Holiday
I have learned along my journey that it is important to reclaim moments, events, and holidays to make them my own thing. And that it is good to do things for yourself. I decided to do both of these things yesterday.
- I made cookies that I took to my co-workers (their favorite strawberry ones)
- Bought my pupper a new toy
- Went to the store and bought a something for me that I have been wanting for months
- Watched a Christmas movie that didn’t hold sentimental value between me and my ex-husband
Doing these simple things spread across a few days brought me great joy. I felt like I was truly celebrating this holiday the way that I wanted and I did some things to make me happy. This was a big step for me, especially because I did it by myself. This is my reminder to you that you are also worth moments that you take for yourself and make for yourself. You deserve to have your own special memories that are no longer associated with abuse or your abuser.
