Most of the time sexual assault really boils down to the perpetrator exerting power and control over you. They may lack the sense of these things in their everyday life. Or they may be using this as a way to establish their power over you. In turn making you feel powerless.
How They Make You Feel Powerless
This type of assault makes you feel so vulnerable. You didn’t have a way to make other choices. You lost your power in that moment.
Perhaps because:
- They were bigger than you
- They had a weapon
- They trapped you in
- They emotionally manipulated you
- You were not physically/mentally capable of getting away
- Etc.
For me, in addition to several of those reasons, I felt powerless because of the position of power my ex-husband holds. He is a part of law enforcement. His dad is chief of police. His uncles are officers/ sheriffs. He feels he can do whatever he wants. And what can I do?
Getting Your Power Back
After experiencing any form of sexual assault you may feel hopeless/helpless. It is so important to find your sense of power again. You can work on re-establishing this by:
- Recognizing it wasn’t your fault
- Telling your story
- Going to trauma based therapy
- Report your assault
- Keep trying to live your best life
Reminder to all of you, that you are powerful warriors, whether you feel like you are or not.
I know that speaking out on your own sexual abuse has been extremely hard for you, but your heart is so big that helping others to speak out is more important than any pain these posts have caused you. I pray your readers find enough strength in your story to speak out against their own abuse/sexual abuse.
I love you dearly,
Gma